The first time I knew that I would fall in love and get married one day was when I was 5-years-old. I envisioned a life where I’d have met you by the time I turned 25, having kids when we were 30, and maybe most importantly, being the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.
We’ve certainly come a long way. When I was diagnosed with autism at 4 my entire life changed. I went from a life of not knowing what was wrong and why I had limited speech to therapy appointments to help me become the man I am today. I now travel from state to state speaking on overcoming obstacles with autism and you often travel to these events with me along the way as my #1 fan in the audience.
What I can tell you about myself from our past and now in the future is that everyday we are together I’m going to show you unconditional love in everything that we do. I went from never wanting to be touched as a kid due to sensory overload to a life where I embrace affection. When we get into fights, I’m going to try to communicate as much as possible to understand your perspective. When I need alone time to wind down when I feel overload I plan on telling you too. And when our successes come, I’m always going to tell you how proud I am of you.
When our wedding day comes it will be one of the happiest days of my life because you will be there by my side. When we talk about having kids I will look towards my parents for advice and guidance based on their experiences with me. I want to grow to be the same dad that my dad was for me; there for me in good times and in bad with my chin held up high.
You see love is something I’ve always wanted. It makes me feel anxious at times with a ton of butterflies in my stomach but it’s a feeling that brings the best out of me. Something about it made me feel uneasy as a kid especially when I was being bullied. One peer when I was in High School told me that I would never find anyone to spend my life with because I was different. It hurt me to my core to hear that.
But I knew that would never be my life. I went to have several girlfriends and I couldn’t have asked for a better one than you. It was than I knew it wasn’t a matter of if I’d find you one day but when it would happen.
So I guess all I have left to say is thank you for embracing who I am, quirks and all, and for being the love that I’ve been waiting for my entire life. What we have is a love that lives in serenity and I wouldn’t ask for it any other way. I’ll always be thankful for you for that.
I was inspired to write this love letter after reading the beautiful words written from Sara LeeAnn Pryde on The Mighty from her piece “A Love Letter to My Neurotypical Husband, From Your Autistic Wife.” I’ve always believed that love is something that brings people together and I wanted to say thank you Sara for sharing her heart with the world like she did. I’m currently single but I know there’s someone out there for everyone and I can’t wait to see where life takes all of us next!